Recently I was asked to write a poem based on Matthew 5:7 this is what I came up with. Know that I have been "the merciful" many times in my life and I strive to be "merciful".
Monday, April 28, 2014
Blessed are the Merciful
Recently I was asked to write a poem based on Matthew 5:7 this is what I came up with. Know that I have been "the merciful" many times in my life and I strive to be "merciful".
Monday, September 12, 2011
Proud to be a Refugee?
Definition of REFUGEE
Here in Utica, NY it is estimated that between 12-18% of the population is made up of refugees. This is a concentration so large that it has been known to make national lists and has caught the attention of NPR, the New York Times, PBS, and countless other publications.
Many of the individuals we serve here at Utica Eastside Mission are refugees and discussions about culture happen on a regular basis at our After-School Program around the snack table.
Recently I was brainstorming new ideas for our summer program and I was trying to come up with a name. I want the name to tell individuals who have no idea about the refugee population in Utica exactly who we are and what we do but I have been afraid to use the word "refugee".
When I worked in the Deaf community in Baltimore, MD the Deaf individuals there were proud of their Deafness, so proud that they intentionally used a capitol "D" whenever writing the word. I began to wonder if refugees are proud of, ashamed of, or indifferent to the fact that they are refugees.
When you search for images under "refugee" these are the typical results:
Me: I have a question for you, are you a refugee? Is that something you talk about at home?
Child #1: I don't know. My family is from Vietnam, my brother was born in another country and I was born here.
Me: Does your family ever talk about being refugees?
Child #2: What is a refugee?
Me: A refugee is a person or group of people that need to leave where there are living because something bad happened to them. They then go live in another place. It just refers to the group of people. Would your feelings be hurt if I called you a refugee or said we had programs here for refugees?
Child #2: What is a refugee?
Next time I will ask the older kids and adults. For now I will continue to think this over. What I know is that I cherish the relationships I have made with these group of individuals. I understand that some of them have been through terrible things in their lives and I want to show them the greatest amount of respect. I also want volunteers who come to work with us to know who they are working alongside. Maybe I will name the program "Awesome People Who Have Great Stories, Outreach"
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Tonight We Shine Lights
Comforter,
Healer,
Tonight we shine lights for those who have ignited sparks in each of us. We watch as their lights still warm us. We focus on their glow and grieve their loss, grieve for their fight. We speak their names:
“My Mother”
“My Father”
“My Brother”
“My Sister”
“My Loved One”
“My Friend”
As we walk past the lights we watch as they all shine in their own way. They each guide our paths uniquely. Comforter, we miss them. Healer, we are scared for them. Creator God, comfort and heal.
We notice as we march that these lights, though unique, share a similar story, guide a similar path and bring us together to say:
“I am sorry you are grieving”
“I don’t “know” your pain but I care about your pain.”
“Enough is enough!”
And “There Is Still Hope”
Because just as we have lost, we have also heard powerful stories of survival. “Survival” a word we shout with some and are too afraid to whisper with others. Creator God, comfort and heal.
So tonight we grieve, we honor, we support one another, we share, we walk past these lights and remember, we are sad, we are encouraged by the reality that someday there will be a cure. Tonight we do all of these things and we ask that you, Creator God, comfort and heal.
Amen.
Monday, June 27, 2011
Annual Report

Recently I needed to create an annual report for Utica Eastside Mission. This was a great task. I love taking the time to look back over the year and report about all the great things that have happened. Here are the highlights!






If each church in the Mohawk District made a commitment of $600 a year in support of Utica Eastside Mission, our current operating budget would be paid for in full. Please consider answering the call to this challenge and become an annual donor.
Wednesday, June 01, 2011
New population, New heartbreaks, New blessings

Church and Community Ministry is described as a “kaleidoscopic” ministry for a reason. In my first placement I worked with culturally Deaf or Deaf-Blind individuals who were mainly adults or older teenagers.
At Utica Eastside Mission I now spend most of my days with children who are either refugees themselves or descendants of refugees. Our After-School program attendees are fantastic kids with great imaginations, and it is not uncommon for me to spend some time in my office each afternoon having discussions about the zoo, or monsters under the bed.
These children are so full of life and excitement that it is easy to forget what they have experienced in their short lives. One elementary student is already on probation; a middle school aged youth is being kicked out of his home.
The youth then confided in me that before they came to America they knew child soldiers and used to fire guns often.
These are children and youth that are appreciative of what you offer them, hard workers, and amazing creations of God. I am anguished to hear what they have experienced and glad that at Utica Eastside Mission they are experiencing the love of Christ.
What a blessing it is to provide a safe place for children who have experienced so much violence. What a blessing it is to learn from each other and share with one another about our lives.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Living in the Westside, Working on the Eastside

Andrew and I moved to upstate New York this summer to take on two new Church and Community Worker positions. We are now living in the near west side of Syracuse and Andrew is working at Syracuse Westside Urban Mission, a ten step walk from our front door. I am working in Utica, NY at the Utica Eastside Mission, a commute of two hours a day. So far, I have listened to these books in the car:
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows (21 hours)
Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince (18 hours)
Marley and Me (6 hours)
Car Talk (4 hours)
The Appeal (12 hours)
Blood Brothers (12 hours)
During the first two weeks I had not tuned into the audio book scene yet and I found myself trying not to be depressed about the drive and now I look forward to that time each day.

Back to what it is like living and working at our new sites. As Church and Community Workers we are called to live with the community we serve. Andrew’s site had a very nice parsonage for us so we are living in his community. During my 5 years in Baltimore at the Deaf Shalom Zone, we did not serve a geographical area, so I spent those years living downtown. I liked to think of myself as someone who was smart about safety but also not afraid of the city. I had clients and friends that lived in abandoned looking row houses and clients and friends who lived in nice suburban homes. I got to see all sides of the city. When we first drove through our new neighborhood in Syracuse I thought it looked rougher than I had been used to but, like I said, we are called to live in and with the community.

During the first few days of living in the near west side I am sad to say, human to say, privileged to say, afraid to say, I experienced culture shock. One drive through the neighborhood took us past a cop who was choking a young man to get him to spit out the drugs the young man tried to swallow and another young man who was walking his giant pit bull with large free weights hanging from the dog’s side. We have been told there is dog fighting in the neighborhood. One friend told us she walked out of the church next door one night to find a dead body.
In the few months that we have lived in the area I have grown to feel more comfortable. Andrew has met a lot of the individuals living in the neighborhood, our air conditioner did a good job of drowning out the blaring street noise most nights, we have learned how to use our alarm system and not set it off accidentally every day, and our back yard, though in need of gardening, has begun to feel like our own oasis.
Sunday night I needed to go out to the car and bring in the giant bags of dog and cat food I purchased. When I came home from church I put on my black bike shorts, a huge t-shirt and my pink, rubber soled, hippo socks with actual 3D hippo heads on them. Attractive, I know, the glamorous life of a missionary. Andrew and I marched out to get the pet supplies and we lugged them into the house while three cop cars, a fire truck, an ambulance, and an “undercover” police van complete with antennas and computers inside busted the drug house across the street.
This is our new life, and so far, I am really enjoying this new chapter. Andrew and I get the opportunity to meet and learn from people who are vastly different and very similar to us, we get to make connections with local churches and encourage them to comes to the city and help out at our missions, most of all we get to be in mission and ministry with our neighbors in Christ. Some parts of this new life are funny, some scary, most exciting. Stay tuned for more stories from this chapter. Peace.
*pictures shown are random pictures of the neighborhood
Wednesday, February 03, 2010
Another Way to learn about the Zone
Thursday, November 05, 2009
Directly in the Middle of Awful and Beloved
Just for your reference, here is an example of boring:
Interpreting surveys so that a client can get a "free gift" of a t-shirt with a puppy on it...not life altering!
This is another post that will fall right in the middle of awful and beloved. In January I interpreted for a United Methodist, youth conference, in Ocean City. This conference hosts christian artists and has around 6,000 attendees. Needless to say it is kinda' fun to be on stage! (brag brag brag)
I went to this conference my first year in Baltimore and the worship leader was a man named Reggie Dabbs. He brought with him a group called "Masters Commission". Reggie is hilarious and MC preforms live music videos that are inspiring and blunt. I remember thinking as I watched that first year that the skits were motivating but more serious than necessary for a group of youth. I never experienced drug and alcohol abuse as a member of Warren First UMC's youth group.
This year on the other hand I had some experience under my belt. As I interpreted the closing service, Reggie asked all the adults to "hug their babies". Hug your babies! Show love to those youth who need it so desperately in their lives. It could have been the powerful music that moved me or the literally thousands of youth that were standing, saying "I have been hurt by this life!" It could have been both. It could have been the stories that ran through my head as I interpreted, the Deaf boy I know who grew up with no one to communicate with and experienced abuse at home and rape at school. It could have been the Deaf boy I know who held another boy down during a sexual assault. It could have been the girl at church I see every Sunday who has so much potential and a family that has taught her that she needs to hit and punch to get attention. Whatever the reason was, I no longer felt that the message was too harsh. I felt it was just right! I was moved by the message of love for those who need it and forgiveness for those who have done terrible things. I was moved by the youth leaders that got out of their seats and hugged their babies for what could have been a half an hour. I was moved to tears, crying like a baby up in front of 6,000 people.
That evening was beautiful, the experiences were not. This is the world that some youth live in. Some are like me and they play bite the onion with friends on a Friday night, and some have experiences that call us to "hug your babies!" This evening was life altering. Now, go hug some babies! Peace.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cyheJ480LYA
Avoiding the Exploitation of Those I Love
I will not use real names
I will tell true facts but...
I will combine many different stories in order to hide identities.
I will continue to post pictures of individuals who have given me permission but the pictures might not be of those mentioned in the post.
Here's to moving forward! Peace!
Friday, January 30, 2009
Conversations with Strangers
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Tips for selling drugs at church...

Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Deaf TV
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
GBGM article

New York, NY, August 21, 2008--In American Sign Language, the sign for Methodist is the same as the sign for enthusiasm. This is historically appropriate, and many United Methodists today are excited about deaf ministries and communicating through sign language. One place of such enthusiasm is the General Board of Global Ministries.
Ministry with the deaf on a church-wide basis was launched by the 2000 United Methodist General Conference, the denomination's quadrennial legislature, and was assigned to Global Ministries. It continues as a creative, innovative, and global emphasis.
Bishop Rev. Peggy Johnson was a consultant with Global Ministries' deaf ministries at the time of its inception and was pastor of Christ Church, a congregation for the deaf at the time of her election to the episcopacy in July 2008. She is the author of Deaf Ministry: Make a Joyful Silence, which makes it clear that ministry of any kind, and especially with the deaf, is a matter of the heart.
The scope of ministries with people with hearing challenges has expanded into international and policy-making arenas.
"This international emphasis is empowering in many ways; in many places, deaf people are stigmatized," says Dr. Cherian Thomas of the Health and Welfare unit of Global Ministries, which provides staff services to the United Methodist Committee on Ministries with Deaf, Late-Deafened, Hard of Hearing, and Deaf-Blind People. The marginalization, unfortunately, also takes place within the Methodist family.
At the 2008 General Conference, one of the sign-language interpreters, William Suggs, was both deaf and blind, the first time a person with both conditions was invited. A participant in the Deaf Shalom Zone at Christ Church United Methodist Church for the Deaf in Baltimore, Maryland, Mr. Suggs passionately translated into sign language for the 900 international delegates.
"He is an amazing musician, visually beautiful at signing," says Mary Gladstone, a Church and Community Worker and a colleague of Suggs at Christ Church. "Whenever we lead a group he says, 'My name is William Suggs and I am a famous signer.'"
According to Ms. Gladstone, deaf people prefer to see deafness as a language difference than as a disability.
Building Bridges of Understanding
In recent years, there has been an increase in the number of mission trips for and with individuals who have hearing challenges. Groups have met, communicated, and empowered one another across national boundaries.
Significantly, the July 2009 meeting of the United Methodist Congress of the Deaf will be held in Seoul, Korea. The congress celebrates and promotes Christian leadership and discipleship within the deaf community.
Rev. Joo Hai Kang, campus pastor atGallaudet University, Washington, DC, the leading center of higher education for the deaf in the United States, is deeply involved in planning the Seoul event. According to Rev. Kang, international exchanges are valuable for sharing information on deaf ministries and in encouraging evangelistic and social outreach to the deaf.
"We can get stronger and stronger by the global cooperation among Methodist churches for the deaf in the world," he says.
Sensitizing people to hear the challenges of the deaf and emphasizing their common humanity is an important part of the committee's work. One program for achieving that goal among young people is through the Hands On mission week at the Deaf Shalom Zone in Baltimore.
This year, 30 teens spent a week learning sign language, renovating houses for deaf or deaf-blind individuals, and creating friendships across language barriers. Gladstone considers Hands On a great success. "We've had praise from the participants," she says.
Several congregations across the United States have significant ministries with the deaf, and the need for sensitivity to this community is growing. Local churches with defined health ministries are the most likely to grasp the opportunity deaf persons represent.
Patricia Magyar, RN, a Global Ministries health and welfare staff member, is enthusiastic about the positive role parish nurses can play in building bridges across the spectrum of hearing abilities. Increasing numbers of congregations have health ministries and full- or part-time parish nurses.
Magyar also encourages congregations to set up committees on ministries with the deaf, late-deafened, hard of hearing, and deaf-blind people, using the model of the general church committee.
The denominational committee is made up of pastors and laypeople who themselves have various levels of experience with hearing and deafness. Throughout the last few years, committee members have made presentations at 13 United Methodist seminaries, funded work in 14 countries, trained new leaders, and funded listening devices for churches.
A renewed attention to deaf ministries coincides with the United Methodist commitment to global health.
More Information and Support of Deaf Ministries:
The United Methodist Committee on Ministries with the Deaf, Late-Deafened, Hard of Hearing, and Deaf-Blind: http://www.umcsignsofsolidarity.org/
*Mary Beth Coudal is a staff writer for the General Board of Global Ministries.
Friday, August 15, 2008
Deaf Shalom Zone Promo
Check out the new DSZ promotional video and the newly updated website www.deafshalomzone.org!
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Deaf Shalom Zone fundraiser
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Hands On Wednesday and Thursday
Memoirs of a social justice missionary.







